This week has been a good but a strange one. I feel like I live in two worlds.
I feel like I have cracked my home life, I get back from work. and I’m really positive, I feel ‘in the zone’ doing my MKMMA thing and I’ve pretty much cut out TV entirely.I tried to watch an episode of once upon a time, got bored and rapidly went back to MKMMA stuff!
Husband and I now eat at the dinner table and talk which is fab! He’s been totally supportive of this experience which is a wonderful blessing. I’m getting all these wonderful signs too, I mean look at what was waiting for me in a pub in Shrewsbury on the weekend…
My work life however is something I am struggling with. I find myself exhausted and frustrated to the point of sickness this week. My old blue print is really hitting me with everything it’s got. But I promise, I AM TRYING 🙂
Small steps seem to be the key. I think a big part of me just wants to be perfect at all this already, and when I’m not I find it hard and beat myself up. I think it’s the old blue print talking again and being sneaky, and when I’m rushed (as I am at work!) I instinctively fall for it.
My new blue print likes a more relaxed pace, I guess that’s why it slots happily into place at home. I’m trying to make little cross overs to help, for example I made myself a ‘compass watch’ to help me remember my path, which I wear at school, the kids love it! Here it is: